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>Since I wrote my book ‘Eyes without Sparkle – a journey through postnatal illness’ in 2005 my new journey was very different from the original family life I had always imagined. The speaking world and other factors took its toll on my marriage and I found my soul mate in fellow speaker Clive Gott. www.clivegott.com

The last three years have been a very dramatic roller coaster ride and finally this year we were emerging at the start of a new ‘high’. Clive and Dominic were beginning to build a relationship; I had officially moved in and had a new home; I was supporting him in business and all the new marketing plans had begun to take off.; we were planning joint speaking presentations and workshops again too. We were beginning a fantastic new journey. He would tell me numerous times a day how much he adored me and made me feel like I was the most important person in the world.

He had a second knee replacement last Monday and was doing very well, but refused to let me nurse him – Mr independent. On Saturday he began to say he felt he had heartburn and felt unwell. He went up to bed, I tucked him in and kissed him – 20 minutes later he suffered a heart attack or clot and very quickly left us.

I need to leave the PND world for a little while …. but I will be back.

Elaine Hanzak
www.hanzak.com