Lucky Sue — she had one of each now. Both she and the lovely tiny baby were well and I was pleased to see them. I still felt very raw about my birth experience and wanted to cry again as Sue told me about her time in hospital. I often wanted to do an ‘action replay’ now of the last few months but that was impossible. She asked how I was. ‘Fine’ was my reply. I know she did not believe me. After our evening meal both Nick and I were pleased when Dominic watched us open and close our hands and he copied us! He was now starting to achieve things that some of the children we taught could not do and every tiny stage impressed and amazed us. That week I noticed that Nick too had begun to be cross about mundane matters more than usual, such as waiting too long for the car to have its MOT. He must have been finding our lifestyle very trying and yet I was powerless to help or even notice. Little by little I was distancing myself from the people I was closest to. I am normally an affectionate and demonstrative person but I had begun to recoil from hugs given to offer me support. I did not need them, I told myself.
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